33 Days are a series of Works created during 33 consecutive days (04/08/2015 - 05/12/2015) - which I stop smoking- starting the end of my 15 year pack a day nicotine addiction.  Part journal, part online installation - I can't entirely tell.   Work is listed chronologically by date, and you may scroll down to see the entire 33 days, as they and I, evolve.

I planned on giving myself the gift of stopping smoking, on 05/12/2015  - for my 33rd birthday.  On April 8th I woke up and felt something say "let's stop today."  I didn't know it was exactly 33 days till my 33rd birthday.  These are works of all sorts, created during this time.  A way to not smoke.  A way to get through this.  This is the fucking worst.  I'm gonna enjoy it.  

04/08/15 - "3 Angels" .    

Old Paper - Paper that falls apart when you touch it paper / Pencil / Gouache.

Drew These When I Wanted To Smoke.  Helped Me Not Smoke.

04/08/2015 - On way to Meditation Meeting, I pass by this man sitting in his garage,  I found the scene to be beautiful.  I only had my cell phone on me, as I neglected to trust my gut earlier and bring my Camera.  I passed by him, walked a couple paces and said, well if you have a business card in your wallet, then go back and ask to shoot him.  I never have business cards in my wallet, but I somehow, had one.  So  I went back and asked.  His name is James.  I took three photos.  This one I edited for my I.C.O.N.S. series

04/08/2015 - On way to Meditation Meeting, I pass by this man sitting in his garage,  I found the scene to be beautiful.  I only had my cell phone on me, as I neglected to trust my gut earlier and bring my Camera.  I passed by him, walked a couple paces and said, well if you have a business card in your wallet, then go back and ask to shoot him.  I never have business cards in my wallet, but I somehow, had one.  So  I went back and asked.  His name is James.  I took three photos.  This one I edited for my I.C.O.N.S. series

04/08/15 

04/08/15

04/09/15 - early morning - FUCK POODLES.  

Did these this morning.    

Never Really liked poodles.  

They are dicks.

 Maybe that's why I subconsciously drew their little shitty tails like penis heads.  I love dogs, but don't really like poodles.  

FUCK POODLES sounds like a punk band.  

The Fuck Poodles.

 "FUCK POODLES" - poodles is one of those words when you say it over and over and over you start to have a self induced psychedelic mind fuck.  

It's also, a great name to shit on people with "Ey...wassup Poodles."

 "Hey Poodles!"  

Sounds east coast.  

Fuck Poodles.   Not gonna smoke.

04/09/15 - 110,000 Cigarettes.  That's how many a pack a day smoker of 15 years smokes.  At least.  That's me.  I want to say "fuggit" so many times today.  TOO EASY.  No Way.  No No Way.  Fuck that.

04/09/15 - Illustrated these bears.   Churning today.   The last 3 hours have been a mindfuck of nicotine.   But...hey.  I think i like this pattern of bears - I'd wear it as sheets or a bathing suit.    So the future is bright..  

04/09/15

04/09/15

04/10/15 - Gum Disease and Recession from 15 Years of Nicotine Addiction

04/10/15 - Gum Disease and Recession from 15 Years of Nicotine Addiction

04/10/15 - AM Drawing and SprayPaint.  

04/10/15 - Angels 

04/10/15 - Reminds Me of Someone Who Smokes.  Maybe The Penguin.  Phantom of the Opera.  Looks Like It Drinks Cognac.

04/10/15 - Loneliness, togetherness.  When I smoke I don't have to think about that with each puff, inhalation - It's taken away briefly and then immediately returned to me.  

04/10/15 11:00 AM / quick edit of my co-worker as the Easter Bunny for his church.  no smoke.

04/10/15 - If You Are Never Wrong, Then You Are Always Right, and Thus You'll Live A Lonely Life (note to self adapt or die)  

04/10/15 - Loosing it a bit. Fuck contemporary art.  Whatever that fucking means... Sometimes it's bullshit.    That's ok.  I'm screenshoting my co-workers conversations and then turning them into this - and fuck I'm sure some gallery would be like - yep - LETS FUCKING DO THIS.  LETS BLOW THESE UP HUGE - I am thinking, yeah - LETS FUCKING DO THIS LETS BLOW THESE UP HUGE.  But...I'm really wanting to paint these huge, in oil paint - so some onewould walk up to them and be like..."NAH...!!! NAH YOU SEE YOU SEE - HE PAINTED THIS!"  That person would scream it across the gallery and people would go "OHMG NO WAY!!!!"  I have to instagram this.  Nowwayu.    No way am I having a fucking cigarette.  (reading this about 20 minutes later and I don't like the way I sound.  that's ok.  it's ok just leave it.)

04/10/2015  - 11:11 PM There.  Now just focus.  Bye for now.  I looked up before deleting , and it saves my profile.  This and cigarettes go hand in hand.  One hand a cigarette and the other this.  This fucking shitbox hand computer that, for someone of my mental variety - is unhealthy - at least for now.  Dopamine rat cage.  I've known this for awhile but HAD to have it on my phone.  As an ARTIST I HAVE TO - RIGHT?!  AMIRITE BCUZ I NEED TO MARKETMMYSELF. and engage.  No.  No no no no.  I need to just create.   My only job as an artist is to create.  People want to find my art - here it is.   The profile still exists.  Hey - it will be nice to see that I haven't posted in 1 year.   I respect people when I see their profile and it's like "last post - 7 days ago"  I'm like damn...that's awesome.  Good on you..  I can't seem to go a day without posting multiple times.  I check it all the time.  So many times a day.  It's insanity.     https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/brain-wise/201209/why-were-all-addicted-texts-twitter-and-google

04/10/2015  - 11:11 PM There.  Now just focus.  Bye for now.  I looked up before deleting , and it saves my profile.  This and cigarettes go hand in hand.  One hand a cigarette and the other this.  This fucking shitbox hand computer that, for someone of my mental variety - is unhealthy - at least for now.  Dopamine rat cage.  I've known this for awhile but HAD to have it on my phone.  As an ARTIST I HAVE TO - RIGHT?!  AMIRITE BCUZ I NEED TO MARKETMMYSELF. and engage.  No.  No no no no.  I need to just create.   My only job as an artist is to create.  People want to find my art - here it is.   The profile still exists.  Hey - it will be nice to see that I haven't posted in 1 year.   I respect people when I see their profile and it's like "last post - 7 days ago" 

I'm like damn...that's awesome.  Good on you..  I can't seem to go a day without posting multiple times.  I check it all the time.  So many times a day.  It's insanity.  

  https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/brain-wise/201209/why-were-all-addicted-texts-twitter-and-google

After I posted the above post, I felt slightly off - but then was reassured when I saw 11:11.   The binary code caption for it is: " 01101001 00100000 01110111 01101001 01101100 01101100 00100000 01110010 01100101 01110100 01110101 01110010 01101110 00100000 01101111 01101110 00100000 01101101 01100001 01110010 01100011 01101000 00100000 00110001 00110000 00100000 00110010 00110000 00110001 00110110 00001010 01010000 01010010 01001111 01000011 01000101 01010011 01010011 00100000 01001001 01010011 00100000 01001011 01001001 01001110 01000111 " I feel a bit liberated.   A bit lighter. Freedom. (note...I immediately just instinctively picked up my phone to open Instagram, so quickly forgetting that I just deleted it.  That's nuts....)

After I posted the above post, I felt slightly off - but then was reassured when I saw 11:11.  

The binary code caption for it is:

" 01101001 00100000 01110111 01101001 01101100 01101100 00100000 01110010 01100101 01110100 01110101 01110010 01101110 00100000 01101111 01101110 00100000 01101101 01100001 01110010 01100011 01101000 00100000 00110001 00110000 00100000 00110010 00110000 00110001 00110110 00001010 01010000 01010010 01001111 01000011 01000101 01010011 01010011 00100000 01001001 01010011 00100000 01001011 01001001 01001110 01000111 "

I feel a bit liberated.  

A bit lighter.

Freedom.

(note...I immediately just instinctively picked up my phone to open Instagram, so quickly forgetting that I just deleted it.  That's nuts....)

04/11/15 2:46 PM.   - The first three days were tough.  They consisted of a whirlwind of emotions scattered by way of videos, audio recordings, paintings, and drawings. Really - a lot of it, is abrasive, and frightened.  Not coming from love, but more of a reeling of a chemical dependency and a lashing out  of anger, emotion, albeit - in a creative - non violent way - the energy is still the same.  And that's the issue.  I knew that it would have to pass - it would be essential to transcend if I were to enjoy the choice I made to not smoke, and to possibly inspire someone else to not smoke.   To enjoy the choice of life.  To enjoy the experience.  The new adventure.  It's now become a bit more than not smoking, looking at - the ways in my life, that have been prohibitive of me truly connecting, in a real way - with myself and fellow human beings.     I want to add more to this post - so i will  do so later.  My eyes are heavy from the 3:00 AM barking dogs,.  Going to take nap.    

04/11/15 2:46 PM.   - The first three days were tough.  They consisted of a whirlwind of emotions scattered by way of videos, audio recordings, paintings, and drawings. Really - a lot of it, is abrasive, and frightened.  Not coming from love, but more of a reeling of a chemical dependency and a lashing out  of anger, emotion, albeit - in a creative - non violent way - the energy is still the same.  And that's the issue.

 I knew that it would have to pass - it would be essential to transcend if I were to enjoy the choice I made to not smoke, and to possibly inspire someone else to not smoke.   To enjoy the choice of life.  To enjoy the experience.  The new adventure.

 It's now become a bit more than not smoking, looking at - the ways in my life, that have been prohibitive of me truly connecting, in a real way - with myself and fellow human beings.  

  I want to add more to this post - so i will  do so later.  My eyes are heavy from the 3:00 AM barking dogs,.  Going to take nap.

 

 

04/11/15 - I didn't get to finish the thought after the nap, I ended up having a good sleep.  Woke up and did this on this old parchment paper.   Reminds me of my heart. stopping smoking, is going to help the entire universe.  Just like when other people stop smoking or are kind to each other.  It's all energetic movement that is bound together.  I gain strength each moment.  

04/11/15 - I didn't get to finish the thought after the nap, I ended up having a good sleep.  Woke up and did this on this old parchment paper.   Reminds me of my heart. stopping smoking, is going to help the entire universe.  Just like when other people stop smoking or are kind to each other.  It's all energetic movement that is bound together.  I gain strength each moment.  

04/12/2015 - I am a signs guy.  As in - I see my magic everywhere because I believe and know that everything is connected - and sometimes you have to laugh and get chills and giggles at the synchronicity of it all.   These are pictures about 30 minutes of each other while driving around Burbank this morning.

04/12/15 - painted a birthday present for my friend Mikey.  Later went to meet them at the Egyptian Theatre to watch a Barbara Stanwyck film noir movie.  

04/12/15 - painted a birthday present for my friend Mikey.  Later went to meet them at the Egyptian Theatre to watch a Barbara Stanwyck film noir movie.  

04/12/15 - My friend Lara took this photo of me.  Said I looked like an angel.  Maybe it's the angle.  That angel angle.     

04/12/15 - My friend Lara took this photo of me.  Said I looked like an angel.  Maybe it's the angle.  That angel angle.     

04/12/15 - Notes to myself and 4 Angels

04/12/15 - Notes to myself and 4 Angels

04/13/15 - Feel like when the cravings come, it's loud.  Grateful for the many tools, including this painting  - that get me through that little moment.

04/13/15 - Feel like when the cravings come, it's loud.  Grateful for the many tools, including this painting  - that get me through that little moment.

04/14/2015 - people are people so why should it be, that you and I should get along together so awkwardly

04/14/2015 - people are people so why should it be, that you and I should get along together so awkwardly

04/15/2015 - (will explain the above photos ) been busy working.

I have been really desiring a pet.  I haven't had one for about a year, since my beloved pug dog, Enzo - passed away.  There is, much to be learned in the terms of LOVE - by sharing your experience with an animal.  A beautiful love indeed.  My apartment only allows cats, despite my best efforts to try and convince my landlord that Pugs are not dogs. (they are not dogs by the way - they are mystical creatures from space).  

I found these two cats - Eva Purron and McFluffin.   They were posted on Craigslist as having "special needs" and needing immediate rehoming.  I went over to meet their owner and immediately fell in love.  These are...probably the two COOLEST Cats I have ever met.  Extremely intelligent, quirky, and SURVIVORS!

McFluffin and Eva grew up with their owner David - bottle fed since they were kittens and adopted from the shelter in Philadelphia. David had / has a dog named Bones and the cats grew up with him too.  Eventually - something turned for the worse, and Bones no longer enjoyed the cats, attacking them both separately - leaving McFluffin without 3/4 of his tongue (just imagine having no tongue and then you can empathize here) and Eva Purron blind in her left eye (with some possible head trauma as well).  

I told David - that he IS more than welcome to come and visit them, and to consider me and my brother - extended family, watching over his family.  I wanted a pet - because I get lonely often (whether I'm conscious of it or not)  - I don't go out too much, don't have time for a relationship, and spend most of my time home alone creating.   The energy of an animal is a brilliant thing.

The cats come over on Saturday.    I'm really happy. 

04/16/2015

04/16/2015

04/17/15 - 4 Angels

04/17/15 - 4 Angels

I remember I was telling myself - don't replace the nicotine with food.   

This week I have bought and consumed 3 large 20 dollar pizzas from Round Table Pizza in Burbank, CA.  

I feel like...this wont continue to happen.  Because it is expensive - or 'spensive (if you say it with pizza in your mouth).

Is 'spensive.

A spense I cannot afford anymore.

I WILL NOT STOP EATING PIZZA - but, I will get it under 3 large pizza's a week.  

Perhaps some kale or juice is in order.

I've been going about this all wrong.

9 days of no smoking and this is where I'm at:

Pizza Habit / Quit Instagram / Adopted 2 Cats .

I'm just going to use this 33 Days as my online dating profile.  

04/18/15 - This is Henry Wadsworth Longfellow.  I have a newspaper from 1906 that has his writings and image;   I scannned them in at hi-res and then animated them as these trippy .gifs.

04/20/15 - Love Sphere

04/20/15 - Love Sphere

04/20/15 - I drove around like this, this past weekend.  No cigarettes.  No Women.  No Instagram.   Just pizza.

04/20/15 - I drove around like this, this past weekend.  No cigarettes.  No Women.  No Instagram.   Just pizza.

04/21/15 

04/21/15